What if...

I am suffering from a serious case of the "what ifs", characterized by regret, moodiness and tears. I know I need to get over it. Which would require me to be forward thinking and relaxed. But that hasn't happened yet. At least this morning I realized that I could turn the what if game around and use it to find blessings instead of regrets. I guess I'll try that this morning and see if I feel better, or at least not any worse. I think I also figured out that's why I like playing dumb computer games and reading predictable, but fun, books...I feel way more in control, and there are rarely any regrets (except about wasted time). I guess I am a control freak in some ways. What if I could turn that around and use it to keep a clean house/office? There's a what if i should pay attention to.